feel that should do something today. don't understand what, but feel for sure the answer is in my dream.. can't remember what I've seen in the dream..

doing my best

so touched..

Was alone at home.. Rare event recently.. was just turning channels and stayed at movie with Richard Gere... That was an adult love story... I can't really get my feelings, I am so impressed and even was on a step of crying.. Really wanna get what was the reason, as u know that was an ordinary story, nothing surprising or whatever.. But it touched me.. Was watching at the house on the ocean beach and dreaming once be there with the ONE.. Got so much feelings inside but cant write or describe it.. I love this and don't wanna analyze why I feel this.. Just got touched and felt that movie, which target group is not my age youth. but here is the fact, 21 y old girl also liked the adult story, the one who's not fond of romances... No more words to say.. Just remembered William Saroyan's words from the "Hello out there!"

“People are the same everywhere. They’re different only when they love somebody. That’s the only thing that makes them different.”

P.S. Just searched out the name of the movie Nights in Rodanthe (Diane Lane & Richard GEre)

boys..boys..boys..

boys are really funny..

right now while typing here I am having online conversation with a stranger. That's really funny. He sent me a friend request and I couldn't make out do I know him or not.. accepted..when he started convo with hi beautiful girl, I got that someone is out for "fishing" loll. And as happens mostly (many girls will prove that) u receive message like this: "I saw your pics and really wanna meet in real.." And this is after hi, how are you? I really wonder what they predict to see back? are there any girls who say "tell me the place and the time, I'll be there. Dont be late."
And I also remembered an offline case happened with me on vacation.. I was in the park alone (waiting for my friend) and one guy just asked me to shoot him. Surely I made a photo and we just started talking like for 1 minute. And what he told me" Can I accompany you?" Mann, U were doing that already, why u need to ask that? Before that, I considered that as just chatting but when he mentioned that he accompanies me it was like an alarm. And I said that I was waiting for my friend to come.

The moral was: Boys, in many cases it is more easy to start conversation with us without pointing that you are interested in us like just beautiful girls. Starting chatting and getting our trust will help you more ;)

...about an hour ago one of my mates told me news about her career.. just for a first second I felt smth awful, I thought "why it's not me?".. just for a second, but its an hour I can't forgive myself. I feel like I'm not that good person as my friends think I am.. If I was a good human I wouldn't even think about that even for a moment...


hello depression..

Rock for Students Festival

Today I managed to get on Rock For Students Festival, which was organized by Armenian Students Forum. Had a really great time!
Though getting inside was not so easy) Wanna note that my phone was out of charge while waiting my friends and couldn't contact with them as I don't remember phone numbers. Standing in a street there was a girl who's been waiting also, lets say, for 30 minutes. Just asked her if it would be possible to insert my SIM in her phone just to make a call. U know what was the answer ? " NO!" wtever greetings to that girl. ;/
Realizing that its not real to contact with Rema, I went to the Puppet Theatre n met her there! Thanks God!
Imagine how angry I was by that time.. We call to the organizers number telling that we're outside and asking how we can take the invitations.. We got a shocking answer: " U had to call earlier cuz no more invitations left, but u know , u can wait for a while maybe u can get in"..imagine our faces, been waiting for 20 minutes, called again and HURA! Thanks to Vardges /didn't even get who was that guy/ we are in..
Actually I went there for Dorians, particularly for Dorians "Life is really beautiful" song, which is really amazing believe me..) I beforehand found out whether they will sing that or no :P
But besides the Dorians, there were couple of other bands: Hunters, Another Story, Road Movie,Mr Hell and Stryfe. All of them I heard for the first time.
Hunters were ok, but didn't get what they were singing about. And also their image was lil bit funny.
Another story.. when they appeared on the stage I said " Wow, they have female guitarist " loll but actually that was a male .. they were soo boring.
From Road Movie I remember that they got saxophone and the phrase from the song ; explore the night! n nothing interesting..
What was really awful is MR HELL! that was ****. We just left the hall..no words, stupid one in grave !
After that was a surprise! Roland from the Reincarnation.. eli lav lava lavaa LAVA! great) love him!
All of them were OK but after was DORIANS turn! They were just great tday, Id say better than on their solo concert. They felt more free and just rocked out! Amazing thing happened with the audience they just went deep inside. No loud screams or clapping its really hard to start applause after their songs.. I listened to them with eyes closed. I didn't need the scene, Gor's voice was everyth ..They started with psychic rain, our David's fav song (he's just 11 months):) And for the last one was LIFE IS REALLY BEAUTIFUL! dunno why I like that song soo much.. I felt nth around during that..I didn't even feel my body, I was inside of it or music was inside me..really inspiring, adorable dun know what to say..just can say that Dorians had me fully... till now I am impressed by it. Actually left the hall after the song.. need nothing more.. I was done)
Wanna really say thank you to the guys for giving me that. After staying at home for 7 days and being bored and can say lil depressed about that Swine flu panic, this was great day basically created by Dorians and life is really really beautiful :)
Wanna keep this in me for a long time ..

How to be creative?

Creativity is the most important thing nowadays, we all want to be creative.
What means being creative?
I think its just will to invent or to be different. But all of us want to be different and with that we all get alike (he he dead cycle).
Creativity is a TALENT. Talent means being strange, but every strange one is not talented, right?
Have you ever thought what is correlated with creativity? First wanna copy here some quotes about creativity. Agree that u need to be a real creative mind to define creativity:)
Lets read some folks thoughts, who managed to do that..

1. "The chief enemy of creativity is good taste."
-- Pablo Picasso, painter

2. "The secret to creativity is knowing how to hide your sources."
-- Albert Einstein, physicist

3. "Creativity is allowing yourself to make mistakes. Art is knowing which ones to keep."
-- Scott Adams, cartoonist

4. "Creativity is the sudden cessation of stupidity."
-- Edwin H. Land, scientist and inventor

5. "Necessity is the mother of invention, it is true, but its father is creativity, and knowledge is the midwife."
-- Jonathan Schattke, scientist

6. "The whole difference between construction and creation is this: that a thing constructed can only be loved after it is constructed; but a thing created is loved before it exists."
-- Charles Dickens, author

7. "Creativity is a drug I can't do without."
-- Cecil B. DeMille, film producer

8. "It is wise to learn; it is God-like to create."
-- John Saxe, poet

9. "Our current obsession with creativity is the result of our continued striving for immortality in an era when most people no longer believe in an afterlife."
-- Arianna Huffington, author and pundit

10. "True creativity often starts where language ends."
-- Arthur Koestler, novelist and essayist

11. "The art of creation is older than the art of killing."
-- Andrei Voznesensky, poet

12. "Human salvation lies in the hands of the creatively maladjusted."
-- Martin Luther King, Jr., civil rights activist

13. "The life of the creative man is led, directed and controlled by boredom. Avoiding boredom is one of our most important purposes."
-- Saul Steinberg, artist

14. "No matter how old you get, if you can keep the desire to be creative, you're keeping the man-child alive."
-- John Cassavetes, actor

15. "A hunch is creativity trying to tell you something."
-- Frank Capra, American film director

16. "There is a correlation between the creative and the screwball. So we must suffer the screwball gladly."
-- Kingman Brewster, American diplomat, former president of Yale University

17. "Creative minds always have been known to survive any kind of bad training."
-- Anna Freud, founder of child psychoanalysis
Thinking further I did a not creative step, searched out something about creativity on YouTube. And found this interesting video:



So now I wanna find out determinants of CREATIVITY function..agree that its not drugs or equipment and its talent, but what else..?

weather affects..

Its raining again and I am always affected by the weather..
I think most of us feel the same way. I hardly can feel sad when its Sunny outside and when it rains I am down. The most important thing is the SKY! if its dark and lots of clouds, its like I am pressed by the air. It can be -60C but God just not CLOUDS!
Thinking about that I searched out on the net to find some scientific explanation about this and u know what I found? In many articles it is told that weather affects on people is difficult to explain, but everyone stated that they feel it.. Its like dreams subject, everyone see dreams but phenomenon of dreams is not fully described..Below I wanna copy out the article about the German recent research with which I do disagree
Researchers in Germany sought to find out whether day-to-day weather affects people's moods.
Researchers branched out beyond just sunny and cloudy and looked at temperature, wind, sunlight, rain and snow, air pressure, and how long the days were.
The study was led by Jaap Denissen of Humboldt University in Berlin.
The study had 1,233 participants, all living in Germany at the time. Most of the participants were women, the average age was 28, with ages spanning from 13 to 68 years old.
Study participants were first given a personality test that measured extraversion, neuroticism, how open one is to experiences, and how agreeable and conscientious they are.
Then, participants were given a daily online diary and asked to respond to a questionnaire that measured tiredness and positive and negative mood. Examples of positive mood included feeling "active," "alert," "attentive," "excited." Examples of negative mood included feeling "irritable," "scared," "upset," "guilty." Tiredness was measured by terms such as "sluggish," "sleepy," and "drowsy."
Most of the participants began the study in the fall.
Researchers looked at how much the participants socialized and slept, getting feedback on those conditions, which can affect mood.
They also collected daily weather data and matched it to the participants' ZIP codes.
Weather and Mood
Contradicting conventional wisdom, researchers found that daily temperature, wind, sunlight, precipitation, air pressure, and how long the days were had no significant effect on positive mood.
• Temperature, wind, and sunlight were found to have an effect on negative mood. Sunlight seemed to play a role on how tired people said they were.
• Wind had more of a negative effect on mood in spring and summer than in fall and winter.
• Sunlight had a mitigating effect on whether people reported they were tired on days when it rained.
• People were so varied in how they responded that researchers write that a mood-weather link may still exist for individuals.
• When days become shorter, some people's moods mirrored that, while others actually felt more positive feelings.
The authors speculate that those who begin to get darker moods as the days get shorter may be people at higher risk for seasonal affective disorder, or SAD.
The authors do reveal some limitations. The participants were not asked how long they spent outdoors. But they do add that the results "can be used as a starting point for future research."
The study appears in the October issue of the journal Emotion.

Sunny Armenia!

Serj Tankian "Pen"

Even if it is rainy and dark outside, We can make our day bright with our smile!

reflection...

Sun was just for a short period.... Clouds again... :(( missing sun...

Today is SUNNY after couple of rainy days... LIFE IS REALLY GREAT TODAY..!! and what came to my mind was this part from Saroyan's play... I fully agree with this today :))

"Anything that collapses-for any reason-deserves to. If nobody worked, nothing would collapse. Everybody would look around, take it easy, find out what theywantto do, and thendoit. Then it wouldn't be work, it would be living, which is what we're supposed to be doing around here, I guess."

Owen, "The beautiful people"

by William Saroyan

Hey there!

This is the first time I ever created a blog and u know its really hard to start :) The strange is that u always think got so much things to say and actually what we do is chatting all around , but then comes the time to write something or to start writing something u feel that stupid STOP...

Guess will write here frequently and sharing my thoughts :)

P.S. Tellin the truth I dun even think that someone will read this )